Strange and then some..

As a Malaspina student you can send poems to their newspaper email account. If they like it, they will put it in the next edition as the poem of the month. I wrote a few I thought I might send in. I never sent it in. This is what Sept.´s draft looked like.

A Half Pair

Can´t find my shoes again.
Mon, Tues, Thur, Fri.
It´s Wednesday. Christ, Wednesday
5.00 date with my guy-a clinking ghost
that looks a hell of a lot like you.

The shoes for the brassy outfit I´ve planned
are brown, and frayed at the edges;
Frayed in that way you know
didn´t happen accidently over time,
Frayed like frayed nerves again tonight at 5.00
Deliberate and stupid, these frayed edges of mine.

And I can´t find them.

Sometimes my shoes are so inappropriate
Like wine and pizza
And your hand on my breast or mine on yours
when my boyfriend leaves. I don´t need shoes then.
Still, today my shoes would match
Only I haven´t found my other one.

You can´t work with only half a pair of shoes,
Or one with one of another pair.

If my shoes don´t match today
And I see you,
It´ll all feel so inappropriate
Me, with only half.
But damn, I
Can´t
find
my shoes.

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