Strange things

Things I find strange:

I want to stay here and continue being a vegetarian for the rest of my time in brasil-

I will eat meat when I travel for my last month here because so much comida brasileira is con carne and I want to experience it all-

France is coming up soon and I haven´t chosen my hosts yet-

France is coming up soon and all of my French is now portuguese-

I´m sad that my portuguese will become french very very soon-

I haven´t done tai chi in 2 weeks-

I want to write-people -updates-the newspaper I´m in charge of here-and I haven´t -

I can see myself here for too long -and I like this pensamente-this thought.

I can´t decided whether to return here or not-and would I stay for so long if I did?

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Anonymous said…
I have been thinking of that last thought too. Except I think I will go back, either for very short (one of the tourist itineraries I helped develop, to see how things are going) or for very long. It´s too magical a place to never set foot on again. I have major saudades right now.

Ah, to let you know, Kezia and I are on the South of Florianopolis, well, Ilha de Santa Catarina. It´s so quiet and beautiful here. There´s a lot of Mata Atlantica all around, so I feel at home, except there is also beach, and when it does not rain, it is beautiful beach. Hope you have fun here if you decide to come. I can let you know where we stayed if you´d like. I am on my way to Buenos Aires tomorrow!
March 4, 2008 at 2:09 PM
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